I feel you, anon. Even now I just had a mild panic attack going through this year’s alumni for the drama program I want to start in October. All of them have degrees from Oxbridge or Ivy League universities and I don’t even have a BA. Everyone believes in me and thinks I’ll get in based on talent alone and I’ll feel like such a disappointment if I don’t make it. (And I’ll feel like all the plans and dreams I’ve had for the next year and the course of my life afterwards will be ruined.) Everyone thinks I’m fine about it but I’m really not. I am shitting myself daily with terror.

Sever yourself from toxic relationships. I know it’s so, so hard, but try to only be around people who make you feel wonderful about yourself. I know how hard that can be though, but do your best. xxx